Life is Beautiful

      Being in love is one of the best experiences I have encountered… especially if the person you fell in love with felt the same degree and intensity of love… especially if it is right.

      To Tristan, I know how much I have hurt you and I am very sorry for it. It was a terrible mistake to have caused you that pain… If there is a space in your heart for forgiveness, please fill that space with love, and not hatred nor regrets nor doubts.

      As I read your letters to me before, I cannot help but ask myself, "what have I done to a great love?"… and I came to a conclusion of TEMPORARY INSANITY… Tris, as the judge of whether I deserve your forgiveness, it is up to you to appreciate whether such defense warrants my forgiveness… And so I pray, after some factors being considered, that you would grant my plea of forgiveness… and let us just forget whatever transpired in that period of temporay insanity… and to maintain a status quo as of April 30, 2007…

June 11, 1999

Dearest Gina,

…. I’m really afraid of losing you. Please don’t let this happen…

….I can’t control my self loving you more and more each day. I just hope I won’t fail again. It will really hurts me to lose you… Babes, I love you… Don’t do anything that will destroy my trust to you…

June 24, 1999

Babes,

… everytime I leave you and say good-bye without even saying I love you, it felt bad. I feel like I’ll be alone again. Maybe it’s the effect of missing you so much…

…there are times when I can’t understand your actions… your intentions… your ideas. But I thinkk I do also have a right to hear what’s on your mind.

I didn’t have a single thought

            That I would fall in love again.

Cause I’m used of being left

            All alone… in the pouring rain.

Then you came into my life

            Filled the emptiness in me.

And then I knew that I was

meant for you and you for me.

I’m falling in love and I can’t help myself

Cause the feeling is so strong

And I can’t stop myself thinking of you.

And all the while I tried so

            Hard to be the best that I can be

And prove to you that my love is true

            And I won’t make you cry.

So promise me that you’ll be there

            When I’ll be needing you… (TRISTAN’S COMPOSITION)

July 15, 1999

Babes,

…. I’m thinking of you… of how many time I fell in love with you… and how many times will I still be falling in love with you.

… I hate cold nights. I wished that you come closer and hold me in your arms. Wherever life leads you, I will be there to share with you each moment, a lifetime with you.

…I will be there to love you and to care for you… forever.

I love you so much.

August 1, 1999

Babes,

… deep in my hear, I’m really sorry. And if in your heart you can’t forgive me, then I have no choice but to suffer the consequences.

… I really don’t wanna lose you for it will hurt me so much. I love you and I never knew what love is…

            TILL THERE WAS YOU

There were bells on a hill, but I never heard them ringing

I never heard them at all… till there was you.

There were birds in the sky, but I never saw them ringing

I nvere seen them at all… till there was you.

Then there was music and wonderful noises

They tell me in sweet fragrant meadows of dawn and you.

SOME RULES FOR A BEAUTIFUL LIFE

ONE. Give people more than they expect
and do it cheerfully .

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to
talk to. As you get older, their
conversational skills will be as
important as any other .

THREE. Don’t believe all you hear,
spend all you have or sleep all you
want.

FOUR . When you say, "I love you,"
mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I’m sorry," look
at the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months
before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone’s dream.
People who don’t have dreams don’t
have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately.
You might get hurt but it’s the only
way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly.
No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don’t judge people by their
relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a
question you don’t want to answer,
smile and ask, "Why do you want to
know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and
great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN . Say "bless you" when you
hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don’t lose the
lesson

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three
R’s:

Respect for self; Respect for others;
and responsibility for all your
actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don’t let a little dispute
injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you’ve made
a mistake, take immediate steps to
correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the
phone. The caller will hear it in your
voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.